Depression is a prison where you are both the suffering prisoner and the cruel jailer. ~ Dorothy Rowe
The days are shorter and the darkness is creeping in sooner each day. For anyone who is affected by Seasonal Affective Disorder you certainly know what I mean. I had heard of this disease, even knew someone who experienced it, but I never experienced it myself. About two years ago, I began to feel a sadness come over me when I knew summer was coming to it’s end. At the time not realizing why, I brushed it off, but it has continued since then. The daylight is diminishing, the sky is changing, autumn is close at hand. I don’t dislike autumn, but right behind autumn is winter, a dreaded season, for me anyway.
For some, winter may be a fun season, there is skiing, ice skating, cozy fires and snow ball fights. For me, however, it’s just darkness, a lack of color and most importantly no sign of life. I don’t know why I began to feel this way or what triggered it, but I do know I feel consumed by it at times. It’s almost like a black hole that you are trying to climb out of, but you keep sliding backward, deeper into the darkness.
This week, I thought to myself, what would make me feel happy and cheerful? I went to the flower market and visited Jen, (the owner of Lilies) to purchase some sunflowers. I love talking to Jen, she is always happy and positive. She will explain about whatever flower I’m purchasing and then suggests what might look good with that flower. I never really liked sunflowers before, but I’ve come to love their colorfulness, they are so bright and happy. They seem to have a personality all their own, happiness in it’s simplest form.
With McKenzie, sitting by my side, I notice that she keeps moving closer and closer to the flowers until eventually she was in the scene. What else could a girl do, except to include her in the photograph. There was a time when she would run from my camera, but not anymore. She seems to become a big ham when the camera comes out.
As Labor Day approaches, the one positive that I hold onto this time of year is having the beaches back. Although the tourists are needed for revenue, it’s always nice to have our beaches back to ourselves again. I guess, there is a downside to any situation so it helps to find at least one positive. For now, that’s the positive I choose to embrace. I’m not sure how I’ll feel in a month or so, but for now I’ll hold onto this one bright spot.
Sorry for the absence, but life got a bit busy, I’m glad to be back sharing my thoughts and photographs. Please send me your comments and . . .
As always . . . thank you,