Depression is a prison where you are both the suffering prisoner and the cruel jailer. ~ Dorothy Rowe
The days are shorter and the darkness is creeping in sooner each day. For anyone who is affected by Seasonal Affective Disorder you certainly know what I mean. I had heard of this disease, even knew someone who experienced it, but I never experienced it myself. About two years ago, I began to feel a sadness come over me when I knew summer was coming to it’s end. At the time not realizing why, I brushed it off, but it has continued since then. The daylight is diminishing, the sky is changing, autumn is close at hand. I don’t dislike autumn, but right behind autumn is winter, a dreaded season, for me anyway.
For some, winter may be a fun season, there is skiing, ice skating, cozy fires and snow ball fights. For me, however, it’s just darkness, a lack of color and most importantly no sign of life. I don’t know why I began to feel this way or what triggered it, but I do know I feel consumed by it at times. It’s almost like a black hole that you are trying to climb out of, but you keep sliding backward, deeper into the darkness.
This week, I thought to myself, what would make me feel happy and cheerful? I went to the flower market and visited Jen, (the owner of Lilies) to purchase some sunflowers. I love talking to Jen, she is always happy and positive. She will explain about whatever flower I’m purchasing and then suggests what might look good with that flower. I never really liked sunflowers before, but I’ve come to love their colorfulness, they are so bright and happy. They seem to have a personality all their own, happiness in it’s simplest form.
With McKenzie, sitting by my side, I notice that she keeps moving closer and closer to the flowers until eventually she was in the scene. What else could a girl do, except to include her in the photograph. There was a time when she would run from my camera, but not anymore. She seems to become a big ham when the camera comes out.
As Labor Day approaches, the one positive that I hold onto this time of year is having the beaches back. Although the tourists are needed for revenue, it’s always nice to have our beaches back to ourselves again. I guess, there is a downside to any situation so it helps to find at least one positive. For now, that’s the positive I choose to embrace. I’m not sure how I’ll feel in a month or so, but for now I’ll hold onto this one bright spot.
Sorry for the absence, but life got a bit busy, I’m glad to be back sharing my thoughts and photographs. Please send me your comments and . . .
As always . . . thank you,
17 Replies to “A Bit Melancholy | Smithville Lifestyle Photographer”
Hi Debra I feel same way bout winter approaching not my favorite either
I love sunflowers a favorite of mine great photos
U are a fantastic photographer
Thank you Nancy!
Ur photos are great n ur sentiments of what Christmas is all about is so true so proud of u debra
Thanks so much Nancy! 🙂
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, Debra. Your images are so very cheerful, and McKenzie, well he’s the cutest!
Thanks Karen. I am never sure about being so personal but this felt right.
Love your pics, as always Debra – maybe you are thinking of a how down for the fall with the accent of the hat on your beautiful blue chair – McKenzie always puts a smile on your face – stay cheerful:0)
I’m glad you shared Debra. Beautiful photos as always!
Thank you Carolyn.
The camera is mommy’s happy place, and McKenzie wants to be in mommy’s happy place too. Sunflowers and daisies are such happy flowers and they are strong and sturdy. To me spring is filled with greens, pastels, and hayfever. But fall has a magic all its own. It is filled with the saturated color of deep yellows, magentas, reds, and oranges. The air gets cooler and you get to snuggle up with great sweaters and smell the crispness of the cool air approaching.
Keep smiling and keep telling your great stories Hugs
Beautiful images Debra; McKenzie is soooo gorgeous. My partner and I both suffered a bit from SAD when we lived in the UK; it was one of the reasons we moved back to New Zealand. I remember having flowers around helped then (as did visits to art galleries), and they still lift my mood. Thanks for sharing these.
Thank you on both counts. It’s a strange disease, I guess it’s a disease?, and I cope with it the best I can. I’m sure many people do suffer from this and I will certainly try visiting art galleries, I know the flowers help tremendously.
I’ve heard that you can have light therapy, but I don’t know much about it. It’s a condition that’s well understood and treated in Scandanavia — not surprisingly. I find art great therapy for much that ails me. 🙂
I’ve heard of light therapy too, but also do not know much about it. Thanks so much for your suggestion. I find art very therapeutic too.
You’re welcome. Art, flowers, music and something yummy to eat. I think all of these things are a bit therapeutic.
Love the photos & McKensie is cute as ever. She even poses.